It seemed like a good idea at the time

This thought "It seemed like a good idea at the time." Probably accounts for 90% of all decisions made by anyone.

But it also has the sub-text of "I couldn't come up with anything else"

Now, lots of bad results can arise from this, but at the time it seemed like a good idea.

The point of this post? don't always believe that there's malice in your misfortune. Ignorance, and best intentions tend to be the main reason why things are done/not done. Not outright malice against you.

Then again, you're just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get you.